I recently saw an instagram post by Cartia Mallan, talking about feeling inspired and not letting fear hold you back.
Which has compelled me to write this post at 22:00 on a Sunday. I've always been the type of person to let fear hold me back from doing things. Living with social anxiety, this has become second nature to me. I grew up and realised I couldn't keep living like that. I'm not saying I don't get anxious from time to time, but I can definitely deal with social situations better. I didn't get to this place so easily, I've been like this since primary school, but meditation has been my saving grace. Anyway that's a post for another day. I don't know how I ended up talking about my mental health but I guess that's just how my mind works.
I've always been inspired by different things, and sometimes let it consume me. I realised I need to focus on myself and what I want from my life. I learnt to differentiate between being inspired and trying to be somebody that inspires me. I learnt to love myself. Everything about myself. And with that, came the compelling feeling to follow my dreams. I love myself enough to go after everything I want in life, without letting fear of failure consume my mind.
I've always wanted to act/direct but couldn't admit it to myself (more so the acting). I thought other people would find it outrageous. I mean, someone with social anxiety and little faith in themselves wanting to potray other characters/people? As a career?! Really the only problem was I just didn't believe in myself. I didn't even try and already blocked the idea of it out of my head. As I began my personal journey to self love, I realised how much I valued, what I want from the world. I've been turning my dreams into reality and the thought of it alone makes me happy.
Don't let fear stop you from doing what you want. Follow your dreams, don't let anyone tell you its unattainable. Be realistic. Don't let comparison be the thief of your joy. Keep working at whatever it is you want from your life. Take one day at a time to reach your goal.
I got new prescription glasses from Oscar Wylee again! My lense prescription changed so I thought it would be a great opportunity to get some new glasses. They're exactly the same style as my other ones just with a sort of brownish colour. I'm in love with them.